in a spring mood

salam.

hehe ok this sounds ridiculous. I have 2 exams to be fight next week, but here I am , giving myself fullest relaxation ever on my bed, acting like I've been too tired of studying the whole week ! study la sangat...

sometimes, I always wonder, at this age, ececeh , is it really okay to still study ? haha. ok dont get me wrong, I mean, sometimes, or almost all the time, I am getting more and more interested to do things like chores, cooking, sewing haha, and stuffs. I mean, my whole focus not really been on study now, just like what I used to years ago in my undergrad years. I tend to enjoy more of my life - as in travelling, trying new things, and err some sorts of entertainment la haha. well, you know me well guys. I was quite a nerd before =p.

so, this is awkward. and now I wonder how married people could still be studying, while cooking, changing diapers, so shopping, have some quarrel with husband, or, okla, have some quality time with family, BUT still manage to get to finish their phD. just in time. God, women are really the greatest creature on earth. no offence. haha. *flips hair*

eh iklan. contoh entertainment saye. g berkelah semasa musim salju. weh minnesota ni sangat sangat lame snow tahu. da spring pon snow. pastu panas sekejap, then boleh pulak esok lusa snow balik. hambek kan. dulu merungut lagi panas panas kt mlsia. jadi. mari bersyukur.

saye nampak cm mak tak? bangun pagi, masak2, siap2kan bekal berkelah. ok fine. I'm the oldest. T_T

tapi seriosly, sangat cantik ini Duluth :) rasa cam masuk movie set lak. haha. eh saye drive tau g Duluth ni. masa balik la, bawak xtau jalan. it's like 2 hours of driving la from minnesota. sewa kereta. niat di hati, next time, nak sewa sports car. wow. and it's not even that expensive here to rent a car ! ;) nice kan. haha.

ok aipp. back to my story. see see, saya terleka tu. live example lagi. haha ok. my syndrome of not putting my study on top of my heart list now. haha.. boleh lak tolong recall kan kt hgpa kan. ahaha..ok. I think kan, maybe I just had enough of studying kot. tu dia ayat mau positif ja kan. sile tampar saye. haha. maksudnya, dulu2 la. since masuk asrama, ke matrik, ke MSU , I always push myself kot. kot lagi. err jap. tapi matriks main2 jugak. and kt mSu pun main jugak ekceli....hahha. ok tapi kurang main la. boleh focus lagi. tak macam sekarang.

hm. maybe, I am now like, oh, study ? chill2, relaxx2, study agak2 ja la =p.. i just have the feeling of not just 'wasting' eh tak, 'spending' my time too much on book. I wanna see the world. on my own, myself, before, you know. all the commitment stuffs coming up :)

but, i mean, the big BUT, not butt, hehe , the not so good thing about it was - I am actually have loads of work to do. list me anything. research. undergrad classes. grad classes. assignments and reports of each. they are killing me really really. and you know, I have to be in 3 transition states when studying. pepejal, cecair, eceh, silap. ok. kena jadi profesor genius ketika membuat kajian@ research. kena jadi sweet 21 dan bergaul mesra dgn rakan sekelas dan menjadi peramah semasa masuk undergrad class, dan kemudiannya, kena jadi wow muka serius otak geliga muka harus skema kena rajin bertanya soalan yang gempak dan berfikir secara kritis dan kreatif semasa masuk grad class. pastu balik umah,trus jadik abnormal. and worse part ia, hgpa tadak nk tolong2 urut T_T *mode rindu on*

ok. with all those silly reasons ( alasan kukuh habis ) , hence the malasness creeping slowly into my life. oh while typing this, then only I figured out something. dushh. haha. ok2. hm. what do you think is really happening guys? takkan midlife crisis kot. awal gila kan. haha. but maybe this is what people called as paradox. is it? it's like in certain situation, we'll do something opposite to what we are supposed to do. haha . like seriously ? ! paradox during postgrad years? unbelievable T_T

so, solution nya ialah. mari berdoa bersama sama kengkawan. supaya hati kita ( ke saye je? haha) tetap, tak lagha, tak terleka ngan keseronokan duniawi ini. cewah. serius ni weh. kita doa2 eh. serius malas ni. asgnment nk kena hantar pukul 4, kul 3 baru duk menaip dgn kelajuan yg xdapat digambarkan ngn kata2. masuk competition penaip terpantas, mmg juara lah masa tu. hehe. tapi takpa. yg penting hantar ye dak. process of menghantar-ing tu, tidak usah kita debatkan. hahaha.

ok tadi cm nk wat penutup dah dgn berdoa,pastuh boleh lak nak melengkong2 =p

ok tu aje. as usual, see, start menaip, terus jadi panjang. patot di apply masa buat research. haha. ok2, sayang2 semua, tk care, jaga solat, jaga perot, jaga makan ye. tata :)

p/s : satu lagi syndrom, I couldnt see at the word SALE now. I just feel of buying things! walaupun miskin. sebagai contoh. ada sale kt Forever 21 maxi skirt berharga $4.99. dalm RM12. takkan nak wat muka tenang kan kan kan?! eheee. ok dah. byeeee!

Spring cleaning

salam.

hehehehe.ok.tu dia lama gila tak berblog terus hamek muka baru dia.kasik makeover sikit.sebenar benarnya, kami punya blog yg dulu tu ada masalah gambar, photobucket tu cm xleh view gmbar dlm blog.been moved or deleted cmtu.haih.geram tahu.tapi simpan ajala blog tu wat kenangan :')

so.what's up! haha. rindu gile ok nk bercerita2 ngn rakan2 sekalian.ecewah. tapi tengokla, blog baru i ni, i da transfer everything that I could from the old blog - all the posts , shoutbox yeay!, tapi follower xdapat pulak nak buat.eceh.bajet ramaila kan follower.geng shah alam jer kot semua! hahahaha *malu malu*

ok sayangs.nanti leen update.kasik meriah dunia pemblogan kita nih.eceh.jap jap.nurul huda, blog anda pun rosak gak an.mari la wat blog baru.buang yg keruh, hamek air purified punya. elken. hahaha =p

see you!!

* selepas sebulan ~

gmbar geli. heh

ok kita dahulukan dengan bismillah supaya tak merepek..heee n mari tgk beberapa gmbaq.

ni masa jalan2 kt chicago after open house :) letak sikit aja.

ni masa minnesota state fair.minne's punya fair is the best of all the sates kt US ni dgr2 nya.. bes sbb dpt tgk lembu and pet kesayangan huda! hehe. n naik riverraft. gmbaq nnt upload fb ja eh...

eh ni masa nkp cari baju tebal kt mall.dlm bus :)

ok ni kt state fair.ramai gilakkk org...

ok..hehe.

salam.

eh eh lama tak bercerita. sebab asyik busy la konon. nk menaip ja mesti tringat ada reading.haha.tp nk jgk kali ini mencuri masa blogging. saja nk bercerita.sudi2 la dengaq nah....hii

emm..kali ni crita psl daily life ajala ya.

ok.klas da start *obviously* haha, leen amek 6 subject utk Fall term ni..agak pendek term ni smpai bulan 12 ja, so sgt pack.pi kelas nagn bus campus.campus connector depa pggil sini.jalan kaki la dri apartment pi bus stop.kadang2 lari. sebab salah timing pastuh npk pas dari jauh da kelam kelibut.hehe.

ok kelas leen mostly kt St paul campus. ok Uni ni ada 2 campus, satu Minneapolis - ada east bank and west bank, di pisahkan oleh sungai & bridge , satu lagi St paul.. byk bio, natural science, animal science, plant agricultural, food & nutrition class kt cni...budak Malaysia berapa kerat aja mai campus sni..sbb xda org amek health science pun.saya sorang.yg amek minor subject bio or nutrition ja ada dtg campus ni. tetiba rasa cm wakil malaysia.hahaha !

ok2 pastu...ha. kt campus ni ada la cafe dia.lunctime kdg2 xlarat nk amek bus balik umah, mkn ja kt cni..kna pilih pizza vege ( cheese ) or subway or burger vege ( sdap! ) . atau kdg2 mkn keropok.atau choc milk ja.tp jarang2 la mkn sni.sbb perot kata dia nk nasik ja selalu -_-'' mengada punya per0t.....

hari busy hari selasa and khamis. class full.gap dekat2.berpeluh2 i.eh tak berpeluh sni.sejuk kot.tp rasa cm hmm... apa eh.lupa.haaa rasa cm mengah.nice vocab.hehe.sbb asyik makn and exercise tak.the only physical exercise yg dilakukan hanyalah berjalan dan berlari ke kelas.dan senyum.senyum adalah considered exercise mulut dan wajah utk individu malas senaman seperti anda.eh.saya.haha.

petang dlm pukul 6 da ada kt umah.mmg tak keluar mlm,tatot.homework pun melambak you.

dinner mmg masak.hari i kena masak hari isnin.masa ni la nk apply ilmu nutrition kunun.adik2 makan sayur manyak2 okes? ayam tara kulit.kuah gulai tara minyak.santan itu taruk selikit saja.hahah

bes tpt tinggal saya ini.kerana.electric air guna la manyak mana pun unlimited.wifi pun ada.jimat jugakla di situ.

apa lgi...hm.research.belum start bekerja lagi.kerna advisor busy.but being told that the projectthat i'll work on is regarding school breakfast program kt elim & primary school and preventing kids obesity.taksabaq taksabaq.

eh eh tau x, sni minah salleh dia xdala selim melim cm yg kt tv tu...ramai obese, seriusly.sbb tu dietitian depa sni kaya oo.haha. so , kita asian ni suma kecik kecik aja suma.comel2.haha.n npk muda.sbb kecik.kecik ok, bukan pendek.hehe *takngaku* .minah saleh kn tggi melangit. hehe.

uish terkelauq topik cek.ok...

itula jadual harian saya.anda pula bagaimana? eceh. hm..2-3 hari ni ada perasaan homesick sikit.namun, saya rasa saya semakin kuat. mungkin kerana faktor usia.erk? hehe. tapi takpa.apa yg saya sedang lalui ni, i believe, is the best thing for me, and for others too. rindu family jgn cakapla..cuma, at the bright side, rindu tu kena jadikan catalyst utk wat yg the best kn.. ^_^

and hv been here for almost 1 month, and i think I catch up things pretty well, so far. Alhamdulillah.rasa cm smooth ja, xda masalah besaq2.setakat lubang sinki dapoq tersumbat kulit bawang tu apala sgt..hahahaha!

eeee mrepek...hehe.next week ada byk kuiz and exam.depa mat salleh ni suka sgguh buat kuiz.hobi agaknya.ha.nk crita psl lecturer.intersting nya leen rasa, depa bahasakan diri depa ngn nama. contoh nama faezah subani.pggil ja subani. or faezah ja.takyah ber miss2, or Dr2.sempoi.and sgt humble. contoh kt lab, Dr tu mai tgk kmi masak fudge, cm kek choclate , experiment types of sugar etc etc.and dia dtg kt leen, n ckp, hi, sorry, can i hv a look at your report? ok..good.i think u shud add bla bla and bla bla.ok? go on then.* smile* ekceli dia nk suruh i improvekan report tu i think, tp sgtla good manners.sopan.

ya, sni rmai mat/minah salleh sopan.sgt tak sama cm dlm tv crita depa yg jahat2 yg carut2 kn..mgkin org2 educated kot kn.tp of course la ada yg cm pandang asian/muslim cm semacam atau taknak kawan.ehehe.mcm i nk kawan ngn dia pun.hiiiiiiiiii =p

dulu masa kt MSu, everyday g kelas cm hepi sgt.becoz i feel secured. I'm with all the people i know well of. or at least, muslim is the majority.and ya la kan, ada geng kesayangan.hehe.tapi kt cni, pgi kelas, bawak diri, drg mostly da kenal from high school, so cm ada clique2 la.tp rmai ja yg independant cm i.international student.hehe.senang jugak, takpayah risau papa.habis kelas, balik. tp adala jgk kenal2 a few..what to expect for the first month kan? and grouping project and lab suma lecturer bagi ja.so ok ja.cuma kdg2 depa ckp laju gila, n saya senyum kambing dan berkata "sori?", or ''pardon? '' hehehe

tringat pulak ada geng se group dapur ( practicum ) ngn saya, tnya mna saya blajar english.hehe.mcm impress gila kot org mlsia tau n speak english.pelik ka? huhu. depa ingat kita duk ats pokok lgi kot.hohoho

ok...rasanya tu aja nk crita.tetiba rasa puas hati dapat bercerita kt hgpa...wpun mesti hgpa boring kn.heeee.

ok..nk mgrib da, leen pi dulu..nnt jumpa lagi.huhuh i miss all of you....

bye!!!!!!

*puashati berbahasa melayu* hehe

p/s: sori....panjangnya!!!!

* hello minnesota !

salam.....

sekarng pukul 6.28am.dah cerah dah.suhu emm 16'C..and still under my duvet.ehehe.

uda kata, kena update blog every 2-3 days kan? haaaa hgpa pun pas ni cepat2 update nah.heheh.so leen nak cerita apa yg jadi pst 6 days.tu dia...xdak aih..hahah kita pendekkan crita jadi simple and sweet.sweet kunun...

leen naik flight fr singapore pukul 5.45pagi 20hb..sorry to say.sgtla x bes airport s'pore.heeeeee....jgn sue saya.KLIA or even LCCT are 10x much much better.in term of facilities.haha.jht leen.ekceli geram sbb xda tpt smayang hahaha..tp yala kan.logik la kan.heee.

apa2 pun, flight Delta Airlnes yg leen naik to Narita, Jepun was awesome.at least.layan movie sepanjang flight.tgk Alice in wonderland * ketinggalan zaman*

ok dlm 6-7jam camtu, sampai Narita.stop dlm 1jam lebih ja, so xda chance nkp tukaq duit jepun nk call mak or even buy souvenir ( hehe ). duk pikir - mak mesti risau, tp mmg xdan masa tu.so, redha aja tggu depan gate.

then again Delta to Los angeles.yg ni dlm 13 jam.haha.memang bangun tido bangun tido tak sampai2...heheh nasib food dia sedap.and tgk movie lagi smpai teriak2.almaklumla feeling lebih sbb baru tepisah dpd keluarga.heeeee

ok akhirnya dlm pukul 11pgi waktu US 20hb tu ( mind you, US lambat 13 jam dpd waktu kita ), sampaila leen di LA. waaaaa...rasa xcaya ja.tp caya jgk, mmg reality depan mata sbb lay over sampai pukul 8mlm.haaa.taktau nkp mana.....merayau2 dlam airport tu.

pukul 8 mlm, bertolak ke Minnesota.selama 5 jam.baru sampai...

minnesota from my window.

ok dah.ni tempat tinggal leeen.

yang bangunan coklat tu la my aprtmnt.. bawah ada bar.HAHAHA

depan pintu umah. dalam ada semua, exc TV. ada wireless, washing machine, dishwasher, oven , dapur aircond, heater semua.unlimited use.just byr fix ja monthly.harga standard.jalan dalam 5-10minit to uni..ekceli ada lagi yg lagi2 murah, tp jauh dpd uni n kna campur mcm2 fees utilities..so akn jdi mahal balik kot.nasib ada adik2 yg recommend umah ni...

above: ni ontheway pegi uni lalu jalan ni..

below: some pictures snapped around uni masa cycling g uni ngn adik roomate aka tour guide hehehe.lama kot xnaik bicycle..awkward.tp most of the students here mmg bike ja p class, maybe i should too.later.hehe

below :ada bike lane khas utk students bwk bicycle. ni ats bridge. kat bawah dia ad sungai Misissipi.lawaaaa sgttt....

ok last but not least.My ID. chewi sat sbb baru dpt smalam.hehe.tringat pulak name tag keja kt hospital ritu...hee

till then,byk gmbaq ekceli,nnt leen letak gmbar uni and campus leen nah. tp hgpa mesti boring kan nnt.heeeee...bye.ok cepat2 update blog lak nah.....

selamat beribadah.happy Ramadhan..

love.

* after a while..

adik adik sayang

okay.kawan2, entry ni sangat panjang.seriusly...

kawan2, maybe i should officially announce, hmm...at last...that i'm going to United States -specifically Minneapolis, to further my Masters.

insyaAllah going to do my Masters in Nutrition and Coordinated program in Dietetics. through coursework & thesis, then amik exam to be a Registered Dietitian.

nama univ leen : University of Minnesota. my first choice di US.

Advisor leen Dr Susie Nanney. hmm..sgt hapy dapat Dr ni, sbb dia punya bidang Community Health & Nutrition, under Family Disparities. Alhamdulillah.memang sesuatu yg leen minat. moga2 dpat sambung PhD ngan dia.

tu diaaaa, pi pun belum dah berangan hahaa

ha minneapolis ni dekat2 chicago la kalu xsilap leen. ni tempat yg plg sejuk di US. terkenal sbb suhu sejuk, salji tebal dengar2nya.takpala...entam saja.

ok..leen duduk umah sewa ngn student mlsia..walking distance ja ngn univ. taktaula lagu mana rupanya, again belasah ajalaaaa..

flight leen amek Delta Airlines, from penang to s'pore 19hb malam, then 20hb pagi s'pore to tokyo, then to los angeles, then baru ke Minnesota.ha mmg jauh sgt kot. 31jam keseluruhan.hentam aja.sebab ni flight yg plg murah HAHAHA

tolong doakan leen ya..

ok itu aja details psal my new journey ni..huhu...

sbenarnya rasa lega n bersyukur..punya lama tggu nk sambung study.mungkkin 1 tahun cm xlama, tp proses tu penat.yg penat nk tggu scholarship.or at least loan kan...penat berharap, penat menunggu, penat kecewa n mengecewakan..and penat cucuk duit kt ATM.apa photostat transkrip sijil application form pi wat certification segala, semua duit.and call email uni sana sini..hmmm...boleh kata semua univ yg ada masters dietetics ni leen apply kot.percaya x? hehe

first, apply univ of Otago ( NZ ) - dapat tp declined lah , xsempat nk jual pasir nk bayaq feess haha

then,Aussie - sebut aja: Sydney, Newcastle, Canberra, Edith Cowan, Flinders, semua apply. and alhamdulillah dapat. cumanya, mmg xda rezeki nkp - xda sponsorship.even M**A nk dijadikan cerita xda duit la pulakkk masa tu......pegi interview dpt bnda lain lak..hehe,.tp mmg leen degil.kan.ketegaq.tolak segala offer selain wat master dietetics, ni smbung research ka, jdi lecturer ka, semua tolak, bukan tolak sbb pa..leen xkn brani buat sesuatu yg leen tak yakin leen akn suka.I've experienced it.and it was the best teacher of all..so takmau dah jadi dua kali...=)

then Uk - you name it. King's College London gempak itu, Queen margaret univ, Aberdeen, Glasgow, leen dapat awai lagi, masa after grad lagi some of it, tp leen defer defer defer, sbb mmg xda loan/scholar..oh canada pun leen ada apply tau.heeeee

so leen sabar. teriak. sabar. teriak.haha.

then..leen pi UK, keja cleaner kt Cardiff hehe, jga baby akak, n sambil2 ambik ilham. haha. and eh eh belum putus asa ( mmg ketegaq i tell you ) - apply US lak. US byk employment while study + tuition fees waiver, itu specialnya..so mmg usaha betul nk apply US ni...

ni agak tensen at first. application fees, and amek GRE lagi. mau teriak kot pagi2 buta pi keja cuci library, then cepat2 vacuum segala, sbb nk study GRE konon. GRE ni wajib to most uni kt US. result dia affect decision utk kita admissible ke x utk admission..ada rasa nk putus asa sgt.tp tu la..there's always happiness that comes with hard work & difficulties. yg penting usaha, doa.n tawakkal...

so amek GRE kt london masa tu, ketaq lutut..paham2la hasilnya itu,,hehe

then settle apply US segala, balik mlsia aftr 3 months+ kt UK..balik mlsia, rehat sat dlm 2 minggu.rehat tu maksudnya babysitting la kn, xdanya dok nganga kt umah tggu org masuk minang haha....so masa tu dah fikir back-up plan..

plan nya kalu xdapat jugak smbung US sbb xda sponsor - kahwin lah trus. merajuk ngan sistem pendidikan la konon, semudah itu. eceh. ok tipu. merajuk diri sndiri yg rugi ya dak, jadi, being a stubborn me, i tried to get loose of my plan - in term of 'when' , which I decided to start to find a good job. Good job I mean here is something that I would not regret if let's say i really cannot go study, hafta stay and work forever, and I can still smile and laugh and enjoy life.

so again, I searched. laptop, google and yahoo mail have been my bestest friend since then.oh no no, since like years ago actually. may be I should've married my laptop if I didnt know Dr Cat before ( heee heee ).

ok move on. kerja. weird, but i love working in hopsitals, and helping people. that's my aim.so that time, that was like my target of what type of work that i wanna involved with. I sent my resume to almost all private hospitals in north states ( clearly I couldnt stay too far from my nieces & nephews, i'll get crazy ). and God, it's difficult to find a job that suits. for a choosy picky me.

so the first hospital that I got a reply from was Mount Mirian Cancer Hospital.pegi interview segala..haha.tapi i hafta decline, sbb tak boleh nak obey dia punya uniform code.heh heh. then, Pantai Utara hospital called up for interview, i was kind of desperate, the job i think is fine, but then, lucky thing happened, Penang Adventist Hospital called me for an interview, as one of the doctor kind of 'like' my resume hehe...so, I got the job. alhamduliilah. it's been a great 4 months of working and I enjoyed every second of it. everything honestly said was nice.

even that, i still think of ways to further study. sometimes I feel ' what a stupid girl I am, to have the heart to leave this place & the job ', but I just follow my instinct that it's just not the right time yet for me to work and kind of 'settle down'..

and just about a month ago, I got a a notification email from my Advisor, graduate school and my faculty, I was delighted.and shocked. It's like a real dream comes true. Alhamduliilah.

so now, when I think about it, everything that happened actually has been planned nicely & accordingly by Him, for me. He knows the best..it's just that I'm the one who's been impatient....after all, if that thing has been destined to be ours, it will eventually be ours, just the matter of having a long run to come or the short one..

Alhamdulillah..

.and thank you semua kawan2 yg sllu bg semangat...byknyaaa kalu nk sebut- love u all, really really. with lots lots and lots of stars on;)

take care..

* thank you

oh ok sangat lama kunun tak berblog.

sangat busy menguruskan sesuatu.

akan diumumkan, walaupun cik uda da tau awal2!!! heeee

by the way. because of the above mentioned thing - I'm leaving my hospital very soon. this Friday. honestly sangat sedih. I'm very thankful that I met a bunch of really nice friends and collegues and superiors here. it sounds cliche , i know. but really. God sent me here to learn and gain wonderful experience. I will treasure it forever.

eventhough they are non-malays, and I only knew them for like 4 months, hmm. I felt like knowing and befriended for years already.

how sweeet that they always help me. and guide me.

there's one time, I remember - after my surprise birthday party , 3 of them busy tidy-up the place and asked me if i wanted the extra rice to be taken home. i said ok, and they started to look for a container, and borrow theirs instead for me, and there's this cute Weedee ( she's 38 but look much much youngerrrrr than me I think, very small frame), she wanted to give me hers la, but then she said - "oohhh wait, I forgot la I always put my rice in here ( container ) with the pork. she cannot take it. not 'halal ' one.." I almost laugh but see. she's very sincere....=) =) so another friend - Ellena , she's adventist and vegetarian, she borrowed hers to me..

and they carefully pack the food everything for me, y'know, for someone you only knew for few months, not just anyone will do that for you..

and my superior. she's sometimes can be quite serious - of course relating the work matters, but she's very very sweet one. My first boss. and I got a kind-hearted one. Alhamdulillah. and I worked as a tuition tutor for her son, as well=)

she always corrected our English grammar during our chit chats hehehe, always impressed by her english slang - sedap tau.heheheh

and she's the one who took me in working here anyway...

so...

actually banyak kenangan 2 yg xleh saya kupa, if nak cerita everything it would take days & months for me to finish heh heh.

time flies. and YESS.. things happen when you LEAST expected it. When I do think that I'm going to slow down with my dreams, and focus and be happy of everything that I have now,

'this thing' comes and say Hi.. with lots of hope=)

by the way.

I'm gonna miss everything. oh oh dont cry.

* looking forward for a better tomorrow"

bye byee!!

* Blossoming months

After more than 1 month working.Okay, I had to say, I am happy.



everything went quite smooth for a start. for my first full-time job. and for experience.

except that suddenly one day a ** couple came renting one of the room in my rent house -_ -''. the fact that I am now living in the same house with a 'men'. and to the worst, need to share the washroom also.

....huhuhuhuhuhu.

you dont know that the real situation is even surprising.I want to move out!!!!!!!!!=(

ok ok move on.

my workplace. I am surprised to realize that I am quickly adapting to myself to the non-malay collegues.actually faster than I actually was before in gov hospital. I am not here to tell that this place is like soooooo perfect like heaven or whatsoever, but to be honest, I am surrounded by a very positive kind-hearted people, that I am now hoping to be influenced being like one=) =)

there are many volunteers come here - almost everyday, just to give any help needed in the hospital; clinically or just management things.

here - I am influenced to, I joined Mended Hearts support group : which is the association to support the patients who undergone any heart operation, and need time and moral support to 'speed' up the recovery process . and also we'll give support to those who are scheduled to do one...

plus, i am gatall-er to become a member of Persatuan Diabetic malaysia ( PDM ) - which I am also one of the support group member=) =). we handle many events, giving talks, health screening, etc. I am still very new, and an observer still...hehe

ok ok.whatmore to update about yaa...

hm.here in the hospital, we had this campaign of eating healthy food in our cafe, so there's a corner for the salad bar. it's a salad lunch, that we sell for only rm3 for staff and rm6 for patients/visitors. the set contains a plateful of various salads, 2 pieces of wholegrain bread with choices of spread, and a soup-of-the-day that is very yummylicious=). It's a complete complex carbs, protein and vitamins for all. always full eating this, as 2piece of bread= I cup of rice ( same calories ), so there you got your energy....hehe.now the sell is doing very good. tapi tu lah kan. dah nama lidah melayu, tak reti reti nak makan just bread and salad salad nih. mau nasik jugak...I just cannot laaaaaa....hiiiiiiii. i love rice. terima kasih petani.ececeehhh

ok apa lagi hmm cik uda hang suruh cek update kan ha kan dah panjang lebaq nih.grammar pon tunggang langgang.heeeee

and yes. many asked about my plan to further study.doing my dietetics. Oh me working now is not the end of everything. the dream still going on y'know. hahahaa.nak guna pasir kot beli tiket bayaq yuran segala.haha.

so I will update about it. if there's anything new. I mean Good ones la... you know, I applied and got offers and offers.. sounds good, but it's just not my rezeki yet to have any scholar/loan. and I dont want to spend my youth (still ? hee ) thinking too much, mourning over this matter. but I will wait. and still very optimistic to get my dream comes true.

May Allah granted it , insyaAllah...

so now, I am committed to my job , i do what i like, go jalan2 near botanical garden sometimes.go walk by the beach - i mean gurney la - once.haha... and do aerobic .ececehhh

ok seriously I really want to travel world.helping poor people.doing more charity. doing more voluntary work. my other dreams. so many things that i want to do until I can say that I want to rest and live happily with my grandchildren.ececehh.

hm.

so.life cannot be planned so far ahead, right? it's so fragile that most of the times we just have to follow the flow... as long as we hold to our faith and we know that there is an everlasting world for us to look up. our destiny.

okay dah dah cik leen mengapa sgt suka pot pet sekarang =)

bye bye bye.

Pray hard, do your best in whatever you are doing now, enjoy it to every bits, think positive, and be happy. tau?

take care.

* first and foremost

Time flies. I just realized how big I am now, today.big as if er err not a girl anymore, but more to being a woman,ecehh.

ok ok fine. feeling 'big' is not part of being matured, really. it's just the very superficial feeling.that I managed to drive.alone. i mean in my car alone.surrounded by hundreds of car on the busiest penang roads..

do you know how nervous i am? I was trying to cross the road ( 2 way road ), and my feet couldnt even press the pedal properly, that I can feel the shaking! haha

but still, i can always maintain my confident face.haha.thinking that the other unknowing drivers might not notice and of course, care a bit of my feeling that time, i just GO! and drive and drive and drive.

anyway.penang teaches you to drive in a kamikaze way, really!!

so today was a round round penang day. =) I practiced to use the roads which I thought will be very useful ~

oh i got my own checklist on which roads should I focus more, for these first few days of driving:

• from my apartment to hospital. succeed
• from my hospital to my apartment. succeed.
• the shortest but dangerous route - succeed
• the longer but easiest route - succeed but still unsure.
• the market to buy vegetables and eggs when needed - twice rounds and succeed. I am a good shopping lady.
• the shopping mall - OF COURSE succeed! see? very good shopping lady.
• the beach aka Gurney drive - oh oh my playground, succeed!
  

and I also accidentally went on to other unfamiliar road ~ proving my sesatness as well.hehe.

ok.

so today is the exam day lah.so called.as this is the results of two weeks road observation during my walking-to-work days. hardworking sgt lah kn.takot sesat.

but as my mom put it - sesat sesat pun di melesia jugak!

haha even my mom is bravier....... pity me.

actually I planned to ask my closest collegue to accompany me la during my driving here.today. but she suddenly got something to do.suddenly.so, as lonely as I am here, I brought myself up and blasah aja. so sepanjang jalan, telan air liur aja.kering tekak2.after bout 5 minutes, alhamdulillah.ok already=)

lega hati dah bawak keta mai ni.

I was very nervous ( again! ) every morning walking to my workplace as there are many lingering loitering whatever you called dogs here, y'know. they can come and walking with you, even! manja dogs that really freaking me out lorr.

so msalah ini selesai la jgk.

ha ni gmbaq keta saya pakai kt cni, mind you.initially, it's not my car. but now, it's MAYBE has become mine.as I paid for it.monthly.pokai la saya.he.until I got a chance to further study, this will be my car la.

ni saya google ok.but it's same la.just mine one got few red stripes at both sides.and not lawa mcm gmbar ni la.mine not a new one laaa....

keta ni sporty la senang nk bawak naik bukit.as in my case, bukit bendera maybe.hahaha.relevant dak.hee.but i love this car. not so big and not so small. yg penting sporty.and user-friendly.senang nk handle.xdak lesen pun mesti reti bawak keta ni.trust me.hehe.ok paezah?????

ok next is nama dia.tada lagi.sebab kelihatan macho.dan sporty.tp manja.suggestion? hehe usually i love naming my beloved things as "bibi" . sounds cute. but really takmasuk lgsung nama bibi dgn keta ni.hahahaha

so for now, i just call him IO. his real name la.ecehh 'He' konon.my son.hahaha

ok tu aja nk cerita.my updates from penang.

please pray for my safe driving here ya..

friends.miss you all.I am so lonely without my friends here! and I dont even have time to meet cik faezah! sorii....been waiting for you to come home for long, but then, couldnt see you..so sad actually. sori pae..jgn kecik ati tau...kita berjodoh nanti, i pi jumpa you di india.ecehhhhh...

till then.

have a good nite's sleep everyone!!

* New Days

new days.

hi my friends. so long that I waited and counted everyday, when will I really been able to update.

so here.

tonite.I put aside of everyting.and staring high-spiritedly on the laptop screen.hehe

ok.my dear freiends, I am now working as a health educator in Penang Adventist Hospital ( shocking, dont you? )

so cute that they put my 'manja' name instead of full name that is not even long.

my units are under a Wellness & Lifestyle Intervention Centre, which is a department of Community Health.

FYI, this hosp is a charity-based & non-profit hospital. Aside the name - they treat all different religions staffs really well, and whatmore- they only serve vegetarian food at the cafetaria.hahaha.makes me craving for some chicken & meat LOL....

ok ok next.

here. I am being assigned to handle mostly on the Nutrition and Lifestyle part =)

What do I do ? I dont really know how to put this, but in one - i got to promote and encourage and teach and educate ( same thing rite? ) a HEALTHY lifestyle through diet & nutrition , as the department will sort out many plans and programs for the internal as well as the community, especially for kids, parents and the poor ones. Will get to travel a lot too .

if things go well throughout the months laa.hehe.

ok.

and tomorrow - Sunday ----> i will have a 'dating' time with Malaysian Diabetic Association members to have them doing the health screen things and the diet consultation.

and just right after that - I will have a time enjoying myself at the Baby Massage Class - where i will be one of the 'teacher' of the class.....sounds fun, dont you think??? just hoping that the babies wont be that cranky la.haha

and.we also have an aerobic class every monday and thursday.those who are near, come and join me okay! hehe.

so my working days are monday to thursday ( 8-5) and friday & sunday ( 8-1) , off on saturday.

weird working days, isn't it?

hehe. anyway, it's flexible actually i must say.just like the normal working time where you got that overtime and time-off thang.

ok..apalagiyanakcerita.

oh.i go to work by WALKING.hehe i guess i had lost some weight.ecececeee.but it's really hot here that by the time i got home, i feel like pengsan to coma feeling already.very low stamina.heheheeee.

hopefully, my car , eceh my borrowed car will be available soon.honestly.the car is ready.but the driver is such a chicken!me la the driver tu.heheeeee

hm.lagi.....ok dah.crita pasal umah lak.

as you can see - below is my apartment.ececeee gaya mcm kaya sgt . hehe i sewa sebijik bilik cumel kt umah ini.sgt selesa alhamdulillah.got no problem - so far.

and this apartment located just near the beach i tell you.so nice that i got to go jogging there or at least have some fine evening walk.oh my dear.really really hope that I can do all these with you all.just like we were years before.miss you so much!

eceh.bilik cumel konon.

sengaja kemas utk tatapan.realitinya tidakla kemas begini.tapi mungkin boleh jadi kemas begini kerana belum busy lagi pon.heheheee

sat sat.notice the pink alarm clock.cepat kata comey cepat.hahahaha

some of the bags.ececeee.....ni gmbar tgkap masa first nite pindah n after kemas everything.so maafkan saya kerana cewi.hehehee


food department.


nama depa uda, and pae.hahahahaa.ok ok takla ni hadiah masa orientasi kt sini..terer oh jawab soalan konon




another gambaq cewi masa hari pertama nak pegi keja=) belom dpt uniform masa ni, so can wear whatever.now only greeeeeennn.......hehehe.




actualy i hate camwhoring sorang2.mcm lawakla posing and tgkap gmbar sendiri.hehe tp buat jgk.hahahaa


ok.sekian.itu sahaja.....nnt akan tgkap gmbar banyak2 and crita crita lagi.

ok?

can u please stay tune??

love u all.

bytheway.so lonely here.

rasa cm nak bela kucingla.....

^_^