* as fragile as ever

whenever I have a problem. or coming to think of one of my problems of the past, I felt ache in my heart.

also whenever I happened to remember those unhappy, scary or lonely moments that I've had experienced before, I will quickly try to think of other things. and not to imagine myself to be in the same situations.again. or anymore.

but that was what we called as EXPERIENCE.isn't it?

no matter how bitter how bad it was , still.it had happened and will remain in our memory, as long as it can, maybe until we're old enough to have these memories shrinking and just dissapeared.

hm.make it clear, I'll give you an example.if last time, years before , you were one of the big size lad whom always being teased of, being called as giant whatsoever, and time passed where you are now become one beautiful & gorgeous working lady, and living happily with you nice hubby and kids.

how will you feel everytime the memory of the past hits you?

I just come across this 'issue' when lately I'd come to realize that I am not the same girl that I used to be.

I always want a comfort.

always long for a support.

always hope for a cuddle.

I gave a hard thought few times - of what really is happening to me?

may be because of past few experiences that had happened making me become fragile?

or maybe I am becoming an extra careful girl with precautions being all over my body so that I wont be hurt anymore, in future.

or maybe age factor contributed?

really.

I want my old self back.

an independent hot blooded high spirited optimistic girl.

erti kata lain : saya mahu kembali bersemgat waja!

I think I'm becoming slower and slower.haha

ok peningpening

byebyebye.